February 27~ My uncle passed away

It is actually my birthday today, I turned 48 years old. Sadly my uncle died today. He had cancer. He was given the fatal diagnosis Dec 25th, were he was told he had 6-12 weeks.

He died February 27th, 8 weeks was what he had. He had his siblings with him till the very end. He was so blessed to have them. He will be missed dearly, my dad is going to feel such a loss. They were best friends.

Until next time, good night and god bless~

February 26th~One way you can help a friend~

This my friend is a loaded question. At certain times in my life I would probably answer this differently.

When I was a teenager I feel one way to have supported a friend would have been to go out and show them a good time. Weekends were meant for friends, I was so lucky to have experienced the times we did. Dancing, music, drinks and parties were always in play. Never a dull moment~

My group of friends had children very young. We were all pretty much 22-23 years old when we started our families. So I would say when I was in my twenties the best way to help a friend would have been to help out with their children. I did my best. I was not able to “babysit” often or help out in that way. My own hands were pretty darn full, I had a special needs, medically fragile child and a small daughter. So babysitting often was not something I was able to do. But what I did do was have sleepovers, pool parties and after noon get togethers. Our house was always full, it was wonderful. If friends needed to bring their kids over to blow off some steam then my house was the place for that. I still managed to have sleepovers, and sometimes my friends were able to take advantage of that free time. I did not have that privilege, there wasnt much of an opportunity for friends to take my children over night. We didnt get many breaks, unless my parents took them.

Today, the best way I can help a friend is too offer my time and understanding. Do not be judgemental. I try my very best to be there for my friends. Times have changed however, we have all grown into ourselves. Needing eachother has become less of on issue. We still manage to have fun times, we love to get together. But everyone has their own stuff going on. I hope they know however, if they need me I would be there. I am truly blessed, I’ve had some pretty amazing friends in my life too. I would not be who I am today with out them. Each one of them brings something different in to my life. That’s the best thing about friendships..they are all different, yet all so special.

Well my lovelies, until tomorrow good night and god bless~

100 Thing I Want To Teach My Son #94 I will always be there for you, no matter when or where~ February 25th

I hope you I know this. We at times can have heated discussions and not always see eye to eye. But regardless of any situation, I promise to always be there for you and always have your back.

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If I have learned one thing these past couple years it is to listen more and react after. I am working on that, I know I tend to “jump to conclusions” quick with you. I have no excuse, I guess maybe I may want what’s best for you but understanding what best for you is now your decision. That’s a hard pill to swallow.

You did pull from me a few years ago, you kinda pulled from all of us. I know you were dealing with your own stuff, we tried hard to understand that and give you the space you needed to deal with things in your own way. I feel with you doing that, you grew as a person emotionally and mentally but we were not a part of that. Understanding who you are today is a bit more challenging because we were not involved in the process of you figuring out your mental health and depression.

As a mom of course I have only wanted to “fix” all your hurt and pain. It’s not easy to accept the day you no longer can give a hug, do a craft or bring home MacDonalds Happy Meals to make you happy again. Parenting dosen’t come with a manual, especially parenting a young adult with certain mental health issues.

I guess what I’m trying to say, is it doesn’t matter where or when in life you need me…. I will always be there. I always have~

I may just need more direction and clarification now that you are older. Stepping on your toes doesn’t go over very well with you. I don’t like to assume there’s an issue and want to approach you. Dad is always telling me to “Leave him alone”…lol its only cause I worry. And obviously I want you to be happy. As a mom thats one of the most important parts..

If you need me, you need to tell me. I do my best to not be “overwhelming” in your life. But I do care, and I do love you. You may need to work on that a bit more. I need you to communicate with me when things are not good with you, and you have to be open and honest with me and tell me exactly what you need or expect. I would move the sun and the stars for you. I hope you know that~

Do not ever worry about judgement. We are past that. Judging is not who I am. I have no interest and “condemning” you or making you feel any less as a man if I don’t agree with something. I hope that became clear through the past year and all the pain, growth, tears and laughs that we experienced.

Regardless of my own thoughts and feelings I am learning to respect and trust in yours. I think that says a lot about our relationship. We’ve come along way baby! 🙂

Until next time,

Love Mom~

February 24th~ My birthday celebration

My actual birthday is February 27th, but in my extended family we usually celebrate one another the Sunday before our actual birthday. This past Sunday we celebrated my 48th, and this year I did something a little different.

I decided that instead of gifts, I wanted to have my family and friends donate to a local Toronto dog rescue called Redemption Paws.

I invited three friends to join us for dinner, and they very generously donated to the cause. My whole family donated, and I put up a donation page on Facebook with occurred 310.00 just with friends who supported. I was so happy~

My parents were here, both my children and Paul. My friends have little dogs as well, and I really wanted them all here. SO in total we had 6 dogs…3 of which were mine 🙂

My birthday was perfect, I had a wonderful time. My mom made cabbage rolls, I bought some chicken Parmesan, we had garlic bread and salad. It was delicious. I did not have a cake, instead we had cupcakes and donuts…both my favourite.

Overall we raised 710.00 for Redemption Paws within 24 hours. I think thats pretty good. Hopefully the money will go towards some of the beautiful dogs needing surgery. Or possibly towards travel costs for the rescuers who save dogs in other parts of the world.

It really was a perfect birthday, I couldn’t have asked for a better one. We shared many laughs, we danced in the kitchen and we even had a few tears…obviously happy ones~

Well my lovelies, I hope you are all well. Until tomorrow good night and god bless~

February 22nd~ Christmas with the Martz’s

I know, I know, this is a late post about Christmas. I’m sorry its just Christmas was chaotic this year and i felt very misplaced. So I’m just getting around to posting some of our Christmas celebrations now.

Every year I get a picture of these two crazies at the window looking out for Santa Clause. This is our front window in our home, and they get their Christmas Jammie’s on every year and pose for me at the window. Lol…just amuse me 😉

This is our front hallway, I just love these little red Santa face garland. This year we put our tree in the front hallway. Wasn’t sure if we were going to like it there but it ended up looking so pretty. Usually we put it in the dining room, but i was worried we wouldn’t have enough room this year because I was expecting some company over the holidays. I wanted to keep more room around the dining table. Regardless we did like it here and will probably do it again next year too. I usually set up 3 Christmas trees in this house. We only did one this year, it was fine. Sometimes less is more 🙂I’m not sure if I ever mentioned but pretty much every get together at the Martz’s ends up being a dance party in the kitchen. Here is my beautiful freckled fox with my dad, her papa. They are having a dance in the kitchen. Now this wouldn’t be Christmas without my parents dancing. Actually they dance anytime, doesn’t matter when or where. I love that about them, they have taught this whole family to always dance. I love that about them ~Mom and Kailey trying my Christmas sangria in Christmas bulbs. I wanted to try something different.

I ordered a cake this year for dessert, it was delicious. I also ordered this cake topper which says “Christmas with the Martz”s”…absolutely fell in love with this~

Well my lovelies, until tomorrow good night and god bless~

February 21st~ A good thing from today!

Overall today was a good day~

But I think the best thing was our date night. Every Thursday we have dinner out and enjoy each others company. Although Paul technically is home, he does work from home and us quite busy these days.

Another great part of the day was picking yo our finished pieces from Valentine’s Day, our clay pieces that we painted. We were both very impressed with how it turned out. I will include a couple pictures below. I also took the cutest pic of Ollie, uploaded to instagram. The sun was out today, and we were listening to some music. I purchased a hoody for Ollie a little while ago and wanted a pic of him in it.  He truly is the cutest little boy. He truly doesn’t mind posing for me. The sunglasses are always easy with him.

seriously tho…isn’t he the cutest~

Here is our finished pieces…

we will definitely be back again

 

 

Paul’s Pasta bowl and my moon plate…see the white dot on my plate? That’s a small star in the sky…lol…thats what i tell people 😉

 

Good night lovelies~

February 20th~ 100 THINGS I WANT TO TEACH MY DAUGHTER~

Above all else..people will always remember you by how you made them feel~ Never forget that!

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 #88 Above all else…People Will Always Remember You By How You Made Them Feel~ Never Forget That~

It’s not going to matter what you do for people, what’s more important is how you made them feel.

My advice to you is that you always make those around you feel good when they are with you. You will want others to love who they are when they are with you. 
Don’t mistaken that for feeling like you are responsible for someone else’s happiness…that is NOT your job. 

It feels really good to make others smile, to share in a laugh. Its important to be there for someone in a time of weakness, make yourself available to those in your life. 
Don’t get caught up in someone else’s drama, its perfectly ok to know when something or someone is effecting your life in a negative way. Once again, its not your job to save someone. 
Someone else’s problems are not your problems. It’s ok to be there for them, to do a little an act of kindness. Drop off soup for someone who may be fighting a cold, deliver a coffee to tired friend. Prepare a meal for a mourning family, there are many many things you can do for someone to make them feel good. But never think you can fix their problems. 

You want someone to be able to say at the end of the day “Oh that Kailey Martz really liked my outfit today, she told me how pretty I looked. That made my day…” 
Give compliments, LOTS of them. Always pay attention and always looks someone in the eye. That validates their existence. It will make them feel good to be with you~

Don’t mistake kindness for taking advantage of, always do something that you want too…not something that you feel you have too. 
Well my lovelies, its a quick one tonight. Hoping you got something out of this post…so until tomorrow good night and god bless~

February 18th~The Best Day You Had Last Week?

The best day I had last week would have been Valentine’s Day. Paul and I had a great day, We started off down at our local Play with Clay studio, and then we headed to Cafe 13 to have lunch with friends.

We reserved a cute little table in the front window of the studio. Then we picked out our pieces of clay. The staff at the studio was absolutely amazing. They were so helpful, they guided both Paul and I.

Paul picked out a pasta bowl,

and I picked out a dinner plate. The atmosphere was perfect, they were playing a Valentine’s Day playlist so the songs were all pretty much love songs. We sat quietly across from one another working away on our pieces. I had a very difficult time figuring out how I wanted to make this plate look good. Aarrgh!! It was so frustrating. Finally I searched Pinterest and then I asked the shop owner how I could make this idea work for me…and ahead we went to fulfill my desire of a crescent moon plate.

This is half way finished, I then painted the moon a yellow paint which has exploding rocks in it. So as it is in the kiln the small paint rocks explode making the moon look like it has creators. It’s going to look so good once its done.

After we finished at the studio we walked over to Cafe 13 and met with our neighbors. We had a lovely lunch, always a nice time with Bonnie and Al. Overall it was a perfect day, i am so blessed to have this man beside me.

I hope you all had a great day as well, can’t wait to show you may finished moon plate~

Until next time my lovelies, good night and god bless~

February 17th~What do you want to learn~

I want to learn how to speak Spanish. Done.

I’ve got nothing else to add to that my friend, I think its pretty self explanatory.

How was your weekend? We had a great one, it’s Family day long weekend and tomorrow is a holiday. Everyone gets tomorrow off. We have lunch plans at a friends house in Guelph. Paul and I have helped them through some challenging times, we both have a child in a wheelchair due to a Spinal Cord Injury. I first met them through my work. But then we became friends. We enjoy their company and its so nice to have certain things in common.

Tonight my parents came to dinner and we watched home movies with them. It was such a nice night. When I look back at these films I realize how fortunate we are. I truly am blessed and I have loved every moment of my life. These video’s show a happy, thriving, loving family who worked so very hard to recover from a very tragic accident.

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I have been blessed with the best of parents. Both whom have become our best friends and complete support system for my kids. I am loving these videos, watching them have helped me over come some confusing feelings lately. They are helping me move forward, let go and understand the meaning of self.

I am out lovelies, until next time good night and god bless~